I think most mothers would dream of having a natural delivery–if they could help it. But there are times when things don’t go as we planned. And although I never thought it would happen to me, it did.

When Adam was still breech in the 38th week of my pregnancy, we finally scheduled for a C-section. I was terrified. But at that time it seemed to be the best option, what with his position and

You can say that the operation has very low risk and all, but anyone would know it’s still a major surgery. I had hemorrhoid operation last year, and I had to wait until 1.5 month to be able to walk normally.

So I was kinda expecting worse things to happen after the C-section procedure, considering that I would have to stay in the hospital for four days. When the gynae asked whether I’d choose regional or general anaesthetics, I was quick to decide GA–because of my fears.

I’ve heard enough tales about C-sections gone bad, and women who undergo it would heal very slowly. Well, turns out that it all depends on ourselves and our pain threshold. Mine is low, but I could already walk–though very very slowly–on the second day after the surgery. In fact, I didn’t feel any pain on the first day, at least not until I started to walk. The pain came right when I began to step, but it was nothing compared to my hemorrhoid operation.

The only setback was that I couldn’t see Adam’s face until the second day, but on the third day I could already breastfeed him. He was cute and healthy–and big.

One week after, I could walk perfectly. I still had not done all house chores, but my condition improved swiftly.

Now it’s exactly 5 weeks after Adam was born. The wound, though still swollen a bit, is looking no more than pigmentation. It’s hardly visible, and only painful when I feel too tired. Otherwise, I have no complaint.

The arguments about this subject will not stop soon, but I’ve learned. Sometimes it doesn’t depend on us. At the end of the day, when you look into your baby’s eyes, you’d just say, “If I had to do it all again, I would do it the same way”. Maybe I’d just choose another hospital.